The Ultimate Question
So I’m feeling pretty fired up. I’m on pilgrimage and visiting ancient matriarchal sites.
I want to invite you to the Stardust Bones training starting in October.
Knowing the ultimate question changes everything about how we live the answers. Everything about how we design our lives, our relationship to ourselves, our connection with the Soul, and answering our calling in the collective are all connected to this question.
I’m not going to tell you right away. The inquiry, though, starts right here:
How can we stop wasting precious life force fighting the current paradigm?
Let’s paradigm hop to another way of being. Connection with your Highest Soul Self is not likely or inevitable. When you know your ultimate question and your ultimate answer, then you can start living from Soul. And that’s what we all really want, right?
To live from soul. Awakening is actually rare, as is clearly evidenced by the chaos in our lives, relationships, and world, and in how we feel emotionally and spiritually. As a little girl, I was taught, your one true power is your access to consciousness. I’m not kidding. My mother Caron had one rule. Well, actually two rules. One rule was: stay conscious and the other one was: be where you say you’re going to be when you say you’re going to be there. So yeah, it’s been since I was teeny tiny.
I know how to show you this lifetime, how to gain access for yourself to your consciousness.
I know it’s a bold statement. but I’ve seen it happen thousands of times with our work. Intentional Creativity and Ceremony, they take you as far as you are able to go in your current timeline, which is always far enough and high enough. We do this through embodied consciousness, self-expression and inquiry.
There’s a whole way that we reverse engineer a sacred experience so that you can have a Lifetime level awakening in a chosen timeline. You are not the problem. There’s nothing wrong with you. You are ready, smart enough, healed enough, and have already done enough self-work.
You deserve to be as conscious and present as you can be, right? Right. You deserve to live from enough instead of lack and you have felt the gig is rigged in your bones, and it is.
One of the issues that we have with access to consciousness is that the pathway to awakening has been intentionally hidden from us, especially women. About 10,000 years ago, when matriarchal cultures began to disappear and be silenced and crushed, women’s powers and wisdoms were removed from by force, by threat, by rape culture. And because it was the women who collaborated and guided with the men, the men are also seeking and they don’t know where to look. The difference right now between men and women regarding this particular topic is: Women are conscious of the domination, and men are, by in large, less conscious of how it’s impacting them and can be attached to their privilege and power. They don’t realize they’re actually missing the greatest intimacy of their lives, which is to be in collaboration with other women in their lives.
When colonization began, our cultures, our foods, our designs, our medicines, our gardens, our songs, and our language. Our mother tongue was removed by force.
We remember this trauma in our bones, don’t we? We do.
Whether we’re conscious of it or not. All of us. No one is exempt. My DNA profile shows Metal Age Invader. The Conquestors took over my family village and killed all the men. This is in the area known as the Ukraine. My family traveled from Africa over 60,000 years ago to that area. This conquesting is happening all over the world, and yet we didn’t start this way. War is young and depraved, and perhaps the saddest thing of all is that we know that it wasn’t this way and that it doesn’t have to be this way. But I do think there’s hope and I am unreasonably hopeful all the time. It’s just me.
There is another remembering that’s happening in our stardust bones. So much more to remember about who we are in this exact lifetime. By stardust bones, I literally mean the iron of exploding stars that makes your blood red and forms your body and this earth is ancient stardust. I mean literally. As I stand amongst these giant temples, I also recognize that these stones are also stardust bones with their red ochre.
Listen. We have to choose to gain access to consciousness. It doesn’t just happen to everyone. We don’t just all have mountaintop experiences or even temple experiences. Your default self is often half asleep, one eye open and one eye closed, and all of us in a form of survival that we aren’t conscious of having chosen for ourselves. Gaining access to consciousness is where I come in. Where I come into your life and where I’ve been coming into our human story since I was in my 20s.
Here’s a photo of me taken in August at 55 years old at Musea Center for Intentional Creativity and Consciousness, a museum and art center in Sonoma, California that I have stewarded for close to 10 years with Jonathan McCloud. The other photo is me and my mentor, Sue Hoya Sellers, over 30 years ago when this awakening journey all began for me and when I dedicated my life to the Divine Feminine and said that I am here to serve. Just make it clear. Since that time, I’ve been passing the keys I hold on to global community of women, creatives, healers, guides, teachers, and families. The the women get choose to work with the men and the many gendered in their lives.
I was trained from this early age by powerful women, my two moms, Caron and Sue to claim my access to consciousness in an alternate paradigm, a combination of spirit, science, and somatics. With that specific power, I have taught tens of thousands of women and raised millions of dollars for jobs in the arts for women. All ideas, all of it came from ideas that arose from my embodied consciousness in collaboration with my intentional community because I have answered my life. Because I know the question and I’m about to share it with you in just a minute. I’m not trying to lead you on. We really are getting there, but all this context is helpful.
As women, we’ve been trying to get our power back, to remember who we are, to claim our identity as our own, to get our rights. For all of our lives, what a ridiculous hustle. We have been using precious life force to fight a losing battle set up to make us fail. Those who are rigging the structures that bind us know that we are going to fight it with all of our might.
It’s all part of the plan to distract us and keep us disconnected from our true life force. Well, no more. This toxic paradigm ends here with our conscious choice to self-initiate. That’s why I’m calling ceremony because I know there’s another way. And it doesn’t actually take that long because it isn’t a hustle and it isn’t even about how much therapy you’ve already done. We are proposing a nine-week experience called Stardust Bones with four hours a week spent in self-expression, brave action, and curious inquiry. This experience will bring you as close as you can get once and for all, and you can use the tools for the rest of your life. Tools like metacognition, mediumship, and movement, especially when all three of them are used together. I call this a connection with your Higher Soul Self, but it is really about deeper resonance and chosen fulfillment between who you are right now, your default identity, and who you have always been beyond this lifetime.
When this awakening happens, we do feel high though, high on life and turned on! Liberating self-expression is the key to self-initiation. In ceremony, that’s the cherry right on top!
Is it time for you to make some new promises to yourself? It is definitely time for me.
I’ve been struggling too. Just because I’m in connection with my Highest Soul Self that’s available on any given day, that doesn’t mean I’m not also in the hustle. But I do know a way out of it, and I’m getting out myself, and I’m inviting you out as well. That’s why I’m here.
That’s why the Stardust Bones experience with the eight promises that can change everything is here, from your health to your story to your identity to your money to your work to your spirituality. So are you ready for the ultimate question?
Oh, wait, but first I want to tell you where it first came to me.
The question came to me when I was at the United Nations Commission on the Status of Women, feeling the power of the women gathered, and then a sinking feeling that those who are causing the harm are not in the room at all. Those who make the decisions are not in the room. They are out there unraveling all of our careful weaving, all of our colorful threads, as fast as we can mend the tears that they create. And that’s when it hit me. And I cried about how totally distracted we are by caring for all the suffering and not able to truly live who we are in our own unique sacred medicine because we’re just responding and in reaction. We need to rescue our attention now. right now with powerful intention. I think we can do both, tend to the suffering and live a life that is not in reaction to these toxic structures.
We do leave the burning building and watch for others with their singed eyebrows and wide open eyes ready for change as they run for their lives. We reach out our hands. Some of us need to be on the outside, looking back, looking in. We can be spending a healthy percentage of our life force living our calling, and it will give us the courage to do the good work, to still be a contribution to this great unfolding. This great turning is turning. And my invitation is to join me.
Here’s the question/s.
What would I be doing if I wasn’t spending all of my precious life force fighting power over structures?
That’s it.
Or you could say it something like this.
Who would I be being if I wasn’t responding to the suffering all the time and could design life on my terms?
Or how about
If I didn’t have to hustle, what I would do is….or who I would be is…
The answer to these questions is the right next action and the right one after that. Instead of surviving, we are designing. We move from surviving to designing to curating. And that information comes through mediumship with our Highest Soul Self that’s available at any given moment.
It doesn’t mean that we’re not going to still be activists and nurturers and patriarchal myth-busters. It means that the place and space of heart and mind that we come from is aligned for us and for our Soul this lifetime. That makes all the difference, the alignment.
So together in our nine-week training, Stardust Bones, we’re going to Paradigm Hop. Yep, you will see. I have been waiting for you and you have been waiting for me too. Those of you who feel called know who you are. We have been waiting for each other and this acknowledgement of right time, right action, right connection as part of what furthers the experience. So let’s do this together.
This is the last course I am offering in this particular paradigm, in this particular way, before moving towards sabbatical in 2026.
Here in Malta, I’ve gotten to do ceremony in at least seven sacred temples from a matriarchal timeline, thanks to Jennifer Berezan, the amazing musician and guide. Thank you, Jennifer. In these sacred sites, art and tools were found 6,000 years old, but no weapons, no violence, no harm to the women’s bodies. History doesn’t know where this culture of temple builders went. They just disappeared, and there’s no sign, no trace besides their art and their megalithic temples. When I first arrived here, I felt like one of them, a temple builder on my current timeline because I’ve kept temple spaces since my early 30s. The local legend says the giantess is said to have built the temple at Ggantia in one day with a baby on her back while eating honey and magic beans. That’s on the island of Gozo.
I’m pretty gonzo for Gozo to tell you the truth. To be in her temple and to feel her power and her presence. To feel the connection of a time before weapons is a potent rites of passage, and I bring that power with me to Stardust Bones. Let’s create the quantum temple together.
Will you be a temple builder of these times with me? I hope you will consider joining us. We only want women who have four hours a week to spend for nine weeks. If you don’t have that time, don’t register. Right now we have scholarship savings up to 70%. For those who self-select, yep, you could just choose your scholarship amount and there are payment plans available.
I will close with a quote by Rainer Maria Rilke that hung above my mother Caron’s kitchen sink.
”Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue, do not now seek the answers which cannot be given. because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live a long, some distant day into the answer. “
Blessed be. I love you all.
Curate Shiloh Sophia.
